So I've not been in the mood to blog recently. I've had too much stuff going on in my head and for the life of me, I could not put it into words so that I could feel better about it all. Turns out the only way for me to feel better was to come clean to the person it was all about (Davey), and I did, and now I think things will hopefully be better for us both.

My room was a complete mess, and it still is. I have a years worth of laundry under my bed that needs to be done, and with me doing a few loads here and there, then wearing the clothes.. and doing them again.. I'm not getting anywhere. Living with my parents and brother who aren't helping me sort this house out isn't helping either, so when I tidty something, they mess it up again. I will find a way to force them to become my cleaning slaves and just help me a bit.

I started running again - yay! I also found my running pants, so now I can run and look the part (I used to wear pjs, LOL). I used to wear these black jeans all the time, and then they were getting a bit too tight for me, so I went to the same store and bought the same jeans, a size bigger. The smaller size are just too small for me now, so I'm obviously in need of a good few pounds to be lost, and I will do it.

Despite everything being a mess (my head, my house, my life) and having to worry about so many things, trying to be nice to my family, wanting to be there for Dave when he's stressed out with looking after his brother, everything.. despite all that, I feel like I'm on top of it all and I'm sorting it all out in my own way. My mind is focused and it wasn't before. Before, I'd have just thought blah, I can't do it - and I'd have let it pile up. Now, it's piling up, but bit by bit I'm getting rid of it and it'll all be good soon, and I'll have a routine so I won't let it pile up again. (This isn't just about house work, it's a metaphore for.. well, everything).

For now, I'm going to start my new little project, then jump in the bath for a good cleaning and grooming. I'm going to see Dave tomorrow which is very exciting for me, as it's a whole day earlier than I usually get to see him. :D He has some things to do in the morning and afternoon, but I figure I'll just hop on the bus, go to the tanning place and top up this tan (I went last week, and got horribly burned!) and then head on over to his with some lunch.

My new little project? Well, I bought three little mini journals (yes, I love journals, and I have a billion of them and never use them, but shush!) and I'm using one (it's a shiney greeny/yellowy colour. not as gross as it sounds) for a mini quote book. I plan on finding all the quotes that I love and writing them down (happy, inspirational quotes) and when I feel sad or lonely or uninspired, I can take a peak and it will cheer me up for years and years to come! :P -On with the project!-

My mum finished one of my mittens today. It's a white fingerless/thumbless mitten with a pink band around the bottom. It's basically a muff that has a slot for your thumb to slide through. I LOVE IT! I'll post pics when I can!


His niece and nephew are sleeping over, so I've no doubt they'll be waking us up early. :( I need some sleep, badly. My dog wakes me up scratching my door to come in and see me, my brothers music bangs me out of bed or Dave wakes me up. :( LET ME SLEEP DAMN YOU.

I'm going to sleep now and get as much as I can before the kids wake us up.

P.S
I saw LOTR The Fellowship of the Ring. It was.. FANFUCKINGTASTIC! I thought I'd hate it but it's really really awesome. Thank you Dave for making me watch it. The Two Towers is ready for tomorrow!