• Why does being in love have to hurt so much?
• Why do I have to be jealous about everything?
• Why can't I just accept that he's in love with me?
• Why am I constantly thinking about him?
• How can I busy myself so I don't think about him?
• What can I do to show him I love him?
• How can I stop him from mentioning past 'exes'?
• Why can't I just go a whole week doing my hobbies and not miss him so much?
• Why do I feel this way, and yet at one point he thought I didn't love him anymore?

So many questions fluttering around in my head. I feel sick, my heart pounds so hard I'm scared I might have a heart attack, I can never stop thinking about him and the thought of never seeing him again makes my eyes fill up. I get so angry because I feel all of these things and yet I can't show him or prove to him just how much I adore and love him, and yet if I let him read this he'd probably just laugh and shrug it off (that's what it'd seem like to me, but maybe he'd be overjoyed inside?).

Ugh, Dave. Just let me go one day without thinking about you and what you're up to and whether you're thinking of me. You're driving me crazy.