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Dave and I went shopping in B&Q for a BBQ. They had none, but we bought one eventually elsewhere and set it up in his back garden. We got burgers and buns, some pillows, ketchup, plates and drinks and we sat outside close to the BBQ (to keep warm) and ate the burgers as they came off the stove. We ate the first burger (he wanted to wait for me to put sauce on mine so we could try to together, bless him!) and they were so amazingly DELISH! We had like six each after that and that totally stuffed us up, so we were bloated.

It was really cold outside, so we cleaned up and ran indoors to snuggle up in bed and get warm, and then had a really good time there too. ;)

I have a lot I want to blog about (I've not blogged for a while) but I'm so tired right now, so I'll leave it until tomorrow.

I Was Bored.

1. Where were you 3 hours ago?
Three hours ago would have been 11am, and I'd have been at the bus stop, waiting for my bus to take me home! The bus arrived at 11:10am ish
2. Who are you in love with?
I'm very much in love with David.
3. Have you ever eaten a crayon?
I can't say that I ever have, no. :P
4. Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you?
Two of my bedroom walls, my top, the spots on my pajamas, the checkered pattern on my socks, my knickers, a pink and black neck warmer. Lots of things! There was a time when I never owned anything pink.
5. When is the last time you went to the mall?
A big mall, months! My regular town full of shops, a week or two ago.
6. Are you wearing socks right now?
I'm wearing pink and black diamond checkered socks. I bought them as a gift for Dave (along with some others) but I ended up stealing them. :P
7. Do you have a car worth over $2,000?
I don't have a car, full stop. :P
8. When was the last time you drove out of town?
I don't drive!
9. Have you been to the movies in the last 5 days?
Nope, but I went a week or two ago to see Sex and the City. It was SO fantastic, I'm going to see it at the cinema again!
10. Are you hot?
I'm cold actually - give me a blanket!
11. What was the last thing you had to drink?
A cup of tea.
12. What are you wearing right now?
My socks (as described before), baby blue pajamas with baby pink circles, baby pink underwear with white circles and a dark pink tank top.
13. Do you wash your car or let the car wash do it?
Amg, I don't have a car. Dave or taxi's drive me around, and I've helped wash Dave's car. I've never been in a car wash in that car, but maybe he's taken it when I wasn't there!
14. Last food that you ate?
Chocolate, and a big bowl of pasta.
15. Where were you last week at this time?
Sat right here on my bum, probably just finished eating breakfast (yes, at 14:00) and playing WoW.
16. Have you bought any clothing items in the last week?
I have not. :( I did last week, but everything I bought.. I've decided sucks.
17. When is the last time you ran?
Not for a while. I stopped running on my treadmill but I'm going to be starting it up again.
18. What's the last sporting event you watched?
Football is always on my TV, but I'm not the one watching it. ;)
19. What is your favorite animal?
I like Lions.
20. Your dream vacation?
Greece, taking only bikinis, pretty flowing summer dresses, a hat, a pair of sunglasses and maybe some reading material. I'd love to go with Dave (he's been loads of times before and he adores Greece) and we'd check out all the attractions, not just sit around on the beach all day. I'd enjoy Greece for what it is and what it has to offer, not just for the sun. That too, but not just for that. ;)
21. Last person's house you were in?
22. Worst injury you've ever had?
I've broken my wrist on three seperate occasions (like, one every year for three years), all doing the same thing - rollerblading. Oh, and it's not an injury (or maybe it could be) but I had my lip pierced, and the guy chose the wrong size lip ring and I was in agony for half an hour while he put another one in and tried to get the ball on.
23. Have you been in love?
I've been in love.
24. Do you miss anyone right now?
I miss my friend Sean, but I think maybe I just miss having someone to hang around with as a friend.
25. Last play you saw?
I was probably IN it, in primary school like 10 years ago.
26. What is your secret weapon to lure in the opposite sex?
I don't have a secret weapon, and I don't want to lure anyone in right now. ;) If I did, I'd probably just show my sense of humour.
27. What are your plans for tonight?
I plan on playing World of Warcraft, snuggling up on my own in my room and watching a movie, knitting something (I've not made anything for a while, so I miss it) and then later getting a bath and relaxing!
28. Who is the last person you sent a MySpace message or comment?
I don't have MySpace. I have Facebook? And in which case it was an acquaintance named Mark/Dave's friend.
29. Next trip you are going to take?
Well, nothing big.. since I don't have a job just yet so abroad is out of the question. Chester Zoo, rofl.
30. Ever go to camp?
31. Were you an honor roll student in school?
I don't know what that is, cause I'm pretty sure we don't have it in England schools.
32. What do you want to know about the future?
What does my career end up being? Or, what will turn out best for me as a career? (Most money out of it, most happiness I get from it, etc). Having a hard time figuring what to do with my life.
33. Are you wearing any perfume or cologne?
Yeah, True Love by Impulse.
34. Are you due sometime this year for a doctor's visit?
I need to go for something, but I hate my doctor. I want to change, but I never get round to it.
35. Where is your best friend?
He's at home.
36. How is your best friend?
Stressed recently, but he's holding up and he's been really great to everyone and his brother. I'm doing a little something to cheer him up and make him feel loved for what he's doing. :)
37. Do you have a tan?
You couldn't really call it a tan (not a good one anyway), but I have some sexy coloured skin going on in places (my face, chest, arms etc). I'm not one for sunbathing, or walking around nude for an all over tan.
38. What are you listening to right now?
Jurassic Park - The Lost World
39. Do you collect anything?
I've started to collect glass jars, so I can use them for funky/different vases, or for candle holders.
40. Who is the biggest gossiper you know?
No one really.
41. Last time you got stopped by a cop or pulled over?
Dave and I got pulled over by the police in Penny Lane (the one in the beatles' song). They thought I was brought there to be raped (a lot of raping goes on there, apparently) but we were there to have consented sex. ;) We never said that, of course. Dave told them we pulled over for a chat. They let us drive off.
42. Have you ever drank your soda from a straw?
Yeah, but not in the can. In a glass.
43. What does your last text message say?
I don't have a phone anymore, dude.
44. Do you like hot sauce?
Depends what it's on, but yep I do.
45. Last time you took a shower?
I only shower at Dave's. I take baths at my house.
46. Do you need to do laundry?
Very badly.
47. What is your heritage?
I'm part Irish, English, Scottish and Italian.
48. Are you someone's best friend?
I like to think I am. :)
49. Are you rich?
I have like £0.8p in my bank account, and like £0.20p on my desk. I don't have a job, afterall. :P I live with my parents and they keep me.
50. What were you doing at 12AM last night?
Saying my goodnights to my family and people online.

Jun. 6th, 2008

Is it so wrong to want a romantic, dramatic and wonderful moment, just once? Like in the movies?

One Word Blog Day


Until Next Monday! Dot dot dot.

Mental Reboot Week

See you in a week! ;)

Well Well, Long Time No Blog!

So I've not been in the mood to blog recently. I've had too much stuff going on in my head and for the life of me, I could not put it into words so that I could feel better about it all. Turns out the only way for me to feel better was to come clean to the person it was all about (Davey), and I did, and now I think things will hopefully be better for us both.

My room was a complete mess, and it still is. I have a years worth of laundry under my bed that needs to be done, and with me doing a few loads here and there, then wearing the clothes.. and doing them again.. I'm not getting anywhere. Living with my parents and brother who aren't helping me sort this house out isn't helping either, so when I tidty something, they mess it up again. I will find a way to force them to become my cleaning slaves and just help me a bit.

I started running again - yay! I also found my running pants, so now I can run and look the part (I used to wear pjs, LOL). I used to wear these black jeans all the time, and then they were getting a bit too tight for me, so I went to the same store and bought the same jeans, a size bigger. The smaller size are just too small for me now, so I'm obviously in need of a good few pounds to be lost, and I will do it.

Despite everything being a mess (my head, my house, my life) and having to worry about so many things, trying to be nice to my family, wanting to be there for Dave when he's stressed out with looking after his brother, everything.. despite all that, I feel like I'm on top of it all and I'm sorting it all out in my own way. My mind is focused and it wasn't before. Before, I'd have just thought blah, I can't do it - and I'd have let it pile up. Now, it's piling up, but bit by bit I'm getting rid of it and it'll all be good soon, and I'll have a routine so I won't let it pile up again. (This isn't just about house work, it's a metaphore for.. well, everything).

For now, I'm going to start my new little project, then jump in the bath for a good cleaning and grooming. I'm going to see Dave tomorrow which is very exciting for me, as it's a whole day earlier than I usually get to see him. :D He has some things to do in the morning and afternoon, but I figure I'll just hop on the bus, go to the tanning place and top up this tan (I went last week, and got horribly burned!) and then head on over to his with some lunch.

My new little project? Well, I bought three little mini journals (yes, I love journals, and I have a billion of them and never use them, but shush!) and I'm using one (it's a shiney greeny/yellowy colour. not as gross as it sounds) for a mini quote book. I plan on finding all the quotes that I love and writing them down (happy, inspirational quotes) and when I feel sad or lonely or uninspired, I can take a peak and it will cheer me up for years and years to come! :P -On with the project!-

So Many Questions

  • Why does being in love have to hurt so much?
  • Why do I have to be jealous about everything?
  • Why can't I just accept that he's in love with me?
  • Why am I constantly thinking about him?
  • How can I busy myself so I don't think about him?
  • What can I do to show him I love him?
  • How can I stop him from mentioning past 'exes'?
  • Why can't I just go a whole week doing my hobbies and not miss him so much?
  • Why do I feel this way, and yet at one point he thought I didn't love him anymore?

So many questions fluttering around in my head. I feel sick, my heart pounds so hard I'm scared I might have a heart attack, I can never stop thinking about him and the thought of never seeing him again makes my eyes fill up. I get so angry because I feel all of these things and yet I can't show him or prove to him just how much I adore and love him, and yet if I let him read this he'd probably just laugh and shrug it off (that's what it'd seem like to me, but maybe he'd be overjoyed inside?).

Ugh, Dave. Just let me go one day without thinking about you and what you're up to and whether you're thinking of me. You're driving me crazy.


Book Contest

Katy is holding a contest at her personal blog - Faster the Chase - to win a book, The House at Riverton by Kate Morton. To have a chance at winning, all you have to do is head over to this entry at her website and copy the text at the bottom on to a blog at your website. Easy, right? This will be the first of many contests so make sure you check out her blog regularly. She will ship anywhere in the world so everyone is free to enter.


I'm sick to death of having nightmares. It's annoying me, upsetting me, and I wish they'd just fuck off already.

My brothers birthday was yesterday and he had a good time. I blew up lots of balloons and stuck them (rub 'em on your head and they stick!) to the ceiling and hung up lots of Happy Birthday banners. I decorated the table with little Sports Themed confetti bits, and we had take out food for dinner, and chocolate covered profiteroles. It was nice :)

My journals came. I adore them!

I just finished watching The Water Horse. It was fantastic and made me cry at the end.

Not in the mood for blogging, or talking, or anything really. I feel too miserable to do anything.

Things To Do

I've come across my list of things to do and realised, I've done some!

1) Print off pictures of Dave and I and fill my photo album.
2) Fill another moleskine journal.
3) Have a movie marathon with Dave.
4) Read a few more books.
5) Buy wool and needles, learn to knit and complete a project.
6) Take a picture of myself every day for one month/as long as I can.
7) Get another tattoo.
8) Get my hair cut and a dyed chocolate/honey coloured.
9) Paint my bedroom light pink and buy chocolate coloured bedding.
10) Join a class of some sort.
11) Get into a waking-up-early routine.
12) Buy a brand new phone. (Only it wasn't bought, someone gave me a cool new phone!)
13) Buy new make-up.
14) Spend my New Look giftcard from Dave.
15) Drop a dress size.
16) Exercise regularly.
17) Drink 6 glasses of water every day for a week.
18) Visit a spa.
19) Donate items to charity.
20) Keep a savings account.
21) Learn how to swim.
22) Learn how to horse ride/Go horse riding.
23) Learn to play a musical instrument.
24) Learn another language.
25) Make cute curtains for my room.
26) Travel abroad/fly on a plane.
27) Watch a play at the theatre.
28) Have a bikini wax.
29) Go in a hot air balloon.
30) Do a sponsored walk.
31) Go skinny dipping.
32) Get tickets for Jeremy Kyle.
33) Get engaged.
34) Get married.
35) Have a baby or two.
36) Move out.

Not bad, four out of thirty six. Thirty two more to go! :D