Dave and I went shopping in B&Q for a BBQ. They had none, but we bought one eventually elsewhere and set it up in his back garden. We got burgers and buns, some pillows, ketchup, plates and drinks and we sat outside close to the BBQ (to keep warm) and ate the burgers as they came off the stove. We ate the first burger (he wanted to wait for me to put sauce on mine so we could try to together, bless him!) and they were so amazingly DELISH! We had like six each after that and that totally stuffed us up, so we were bloated.
It was really cold outside, so we cleaned up and ran indoors to snuggle up in bed and get warm, and then had a really good time there too. ;)
I have a lot I want to blog about (I've not blogged for a while) but I'm so tired right now, so I'll leave it until tomorrow.
It was really cold outside, so we cleaned up and ran indoors to snuggle up in bed and get warm, and then had a really good time there too. ;)
I have a lot I want to blog about (I've not blogged for a while) but I'm so tired right now, so I'll leave it until tomorrow.
1. Where were you 3 hours ago?
Three hours ago would have been 11am, and I'd have been at the bus stop, waiting for my bus to take me home! The bus arrived at 11:10am ish
2. Who are you in love with?
I'm very much in love with David.
3. Have you ever eaten a crayon?
I can't say that I ever have, no. :P
4. Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you?
Two of my bedroom walls, my top, the spots on my pajamas, the checkered pattern on my socks, my knickers, a pink and black neck warmer. Lots of things! There was a time when I never owned anything pink.
5. When is the last time you went to the mall?
A big mall, months! My regular town full of shops, a week or two ago.
6. Are you wearing socks right now?
I'm wearing pink and black diamond checkered socks. I bought them as a gift for Dave (along with some others) but I ended up stealing them. :P
7. Do you have a car worth over $2,000?
I don't have a car, full stop. :P
8. When was the last time you drove out of town?
I don't drive!
9. Have you been to the movies in the last 5 days?
Nope, but I went a week or two ago to see Sex and the City. It was SO fantastic, I'm going to see it at the cinema again!
10. Are you hot?
I'm cold actually - give me a blanket!
11. What was the last thing you had to drink?
A cup of tea.
12. What are you wearing right now?
My socks (as described before), baby blue pajamas with baby pink circles, baby pink underwear with white circles and a dark pink tank top.
13. Do you wash your car or let the car wash do it?
Amg, I don't have a car. Dave or taxi's drive me around, and I've helped wash Dave's car. I've never been in a car wash in that car, but maybe he's taken it when I wasn't there!
14. Last food that you ate?
Chocolate, and a big bowl of pasta.
15. Where were you last week at this time?
Sat right here on my bum, probably just finished eating breakfast (yes, at 14:00) and playing WoW.
16. Have you bought any clothing items in the last week?
I have not. :( I did last week, but everything I bought.. I've decided sucks.
17. When is the last time you ran?
Not for a while. I stopped running on my treadmill but I'm going to be starting it up again.
18. What's the last sporting event you watched?
Football is always on my TV, but I'm not the one watching it. ;)
19. What is your favorite animal?
I like Lions.
20. Your dream vacation?
Greece, taking only bikinis, pretty flowing summer dresses, a hat, a pair of sunglasses and maybe some reading material. I'd love to go with Dave (he's been loads of times before and he adores Greece) and we'd check out all the attractions, not just sit around on the beach all day. I'd enjoy Greece for what it is and what it has to offer, not just for the sun. That too, but not just for that. ;)
21. Last person's house you were in?
Dave's.
22. Worst injury you've ever had?
I've broken my wrist on three seperate occasions (like, one every year for three years), all doing the same thing - rollerblading. Oh, and it's not an injury (or maybe it could be) but I had my lip pierced, and the guy chose the wrong size lip ring and I was in agony for half an hour while he put another one in and tried to get the ball on.
23. Have you been in love?
I've been in love.
24. Do you miss anyone right now?
I miss my friend Sean, but I think maybe I just miss having someone to hang around with as a friend.
25. Last play you saw?
I was probably IN it, in primary school like 10 years ago.
26. What is your secret weapon to lure in the opposite sex?
I don't have a secret weapon, and I don't want to lure anyone in right now. ;) If I did, I'd probably just show my sense of humour.
27. What are your plans for tonight?
I plan on playing World of Warcraft, snuggling up on my own in my room and watching a movie, knitting something (I've not made anything for a while, so I miss it) and then later getting a bath and relaxing!
28. Who is the last person you sent a MySpace message or comment?
I don't have MySpace. I have Facebook? And in which case it was an acquaintance named Mark/Dave's friend.
29. Next trip you are going to take?
Well, nothing big.. since I don't have a job just yet so abroad is out of the question. Chester Zoo, rofl.
30. Ever go to camp?
Nope!
31. Were you an honor roll student in school?
I don't know what that is, cause I'm pretty sure we don't have it in England schools.
32. What do you want to know about the future?
What does my career end up being? Or, what will turn out best for me as a career? (Most money out of it, most happiness I get from it, etc). Having a hard time figuring what to do with my life.
33. Are you wearing any perfume or cologne?
Yeah, True Love by Impulse.
34. Are you due sometime this year for a doctor's visit?
I need to go for something, but I hate my doctor. I want to change, but I never get round to it.
35. Where is your best friend?
He's at home.
36. How is your best friend?
Stressed recently, but he's holding up and he's been really great to everyone and his brother. I'm doing a little something to cheer him up and make him feel loved for what he's doing. :)
37. Do you have a tan?
You couldn't really call it a tan (not a good one anyway), but I have some sexy coloured skin going on in places (my face, chest, arms etc). I'm not one for sunbathing, or walking around nude for an all over tan.
38. What are you listening to right now?
Jurassic Park - The Lost World
39. Do you collect anything?
I've started to collect glass jars, so I can use them for funky/different vases, or for candle holders.
40. Who is the biggest gossiper you know?
No one really.
41. Last time you got stopped by a cop or pulled over?
Dave and I got pulled over by the police in Penny Lane (the one in the beatles' song). They thought I was brought there to be raped (a lot of raping goes on there, apparently) but we were there to have consented sex. ;) We never said that, of course. Dave told them we pulled over for a chat. They let us drive off.
42. Have you ever drank your soda from a straw?
Yeah, but not in the can. In a glass.
43. What does your last text message say?
I don't have a phone anymore, dude.
44. Do you like hot sauce?
Depends what it's on, but yep I do.
45. Last time you took a shower?
I only shower at Dave's. I take baths at my house.
46. Do you need to do laundry?
Very badly.
47. What is your heritage?
I'm part Irish, English, Scottish and Italian.
48. Are you someone's best friend?
I like to think I am. :)
49. Are you rich?
I have like £0.8p in my bank account, and like £0.20p on my desk. I don't have a job, afterall. :P I live with my parents and they keep me.
50. What were you doing at 12AM last night?
Saying my goodnights to my family and people online.
Is it so wrong to want a romantic, dramatic and wonderful moment, just once? Like in the movies?
Trusting
So I've not been in the mood to blog recently. I've had too much stuff going on in my head and for the life of me, I could not put it into words so that I could feel better about it all. Turns out the only way for me to feel better was to come clean to the person it was all about (Davey), and I did, and now I think things will hopefully be better for us both.
My room was a complete mess, and it still is. I have a years worth of laundry under my bed that needs to be done, and with me doing a few loads here and there, then wearing the clothes.. and doing them again.. I'm not getting anywhere. Living with my parents and brother who aren't helping me sort this house out isn't helping either, so when I tidty something, they mess it up again. I will find a way to force them to become my cleaning slaves and just help me a bit.
I started running again - yay! I also found my running pants, so now I can run and look the part (I used to wear pjs, LOL). I used to wear these black jeans all the time, and then they were getting a bit too tight for me, so I went to the same store and bought the same jeans, a size bigger. The smaller size are just too small for me now, so I'm obviously in need of a good few pounds to be lost, and I will do it.
Despite everything being a mess (my head, my house, my life) and having to worry about so many things, trying to be nice to my family, wanting to be there for Dave when he's stressed out with looking after his brother, everything.. despite all that, I feel like I'm on top of it all and I'm sorting it all out in my own way. My mind is focused and it wasn't before. Before, I'd have just thought blah, I can't do it - and I'd have let it pile up. Now, it's piling up, but bit by bit I'm getting rid of it and it'll all be good soon, and I'll have a routine so I won't let it pile up again. (This isn't just about house work, it's a metaphore for.. well, everything).
For now, I'm going to start my new little project, then jump in the bath for a good cleaning and grooming. I'm going to see Dave tomorrow which is very exciting for me, as it's a whole day earlier than I usually get to see him. :D He has some things to do in the morning and afternoon, but I figure I'll just hop on the bus, go to the tanning place and top up this tan (I went last week, and got horribly burned!) and then head on over to his with some lunch.
My new little project? Well, I bought three little mini journals (yes, I love journals, and I have a billion of them and never use them, but shush!) and I'm using one (it's a shiney greeny/yellowy colour. not as gross as it sounds) for a mini quote book. I plan on finding all the quotes that I love and writing them down (happy, inspirational quotes) and when I feel sad or lonely or uninspired, I can take a peak and it will cheer me up for years and years to come! :P -On with the project!-
My room was a complete mess, and it still is. I have a years worth of laundry under my bed that needs to be done, and with me doing a few loads here and there, then wearing the clothes.. and doing them again.. I'm not getting anywhere. Living with my parents and brother who aren't helping me sort this house out isn't helping either, so when I tidty something, they mess it up again. I will find a way to force them to become my cleaning slaves and just help me a bit.
I started running again - yay! I also found my running pants, so now I can run and look the part (I used to wear pjs, LOL). I used to wear these black jeans all the time, and then they were getting a bit too tight for me, so I went to the same store and bought the same jeans, a size bigger. The smaller size are just too small for me now, so I'm obviously in need of a good few pounds to be lost, and I will do it.
Despite everything being a mess (my head, my house, my life) and having to worry about so many things, trying to be nice to my family, wanting to be there for Dave when he's stressed out with looking after his brother, everything.. despite all that, I feel like I'm on top of it all and I'm sorting it all out in my own way. My mind is focused and it wasn't before. Before, I'd have just thought blah, I can't do it - and I'd have let it pile up. Now, it's piling up, but bit by bit I'm getting rid of it and it'll all be good soon, and I'll have a routine so I won't let it pile up again. (This isn't just about house work, it's a metaphore for.. well, everything).
For now, I'm going to start my new little project, then jump in the bath for a good cleaning and grooming. I'm going to see Dave tomorrow which is very exciting for me, as it's a whole day earlier than I usually get to see him. :D He has some things to do in the morning and afternoon, but I figure I'll just hop on the bus, go to the tanning place and top up this tan (I went last week, and got horribly burned!) and then head on over to his with some lunch.
My new little project? Well, I bought three little mini journals (yes, I love journals, and I have a billion of them and never use them, but shush!) and I'm using one (it's a shiney greeny/yellowy colour. not as gross as it sounds) for a mini quote book. I plan on finding all the quotes that I love and writing them down (happy, inspirational quotes) and when I feel sad or lonely or uninspired, I can take a peak and it will cheer me up for years and years to come! :P -On with the project!-
- Mood:
ecstatic
- Why does being in love have to hurt so much?
- Why do I have to be jealous about everything?
- Why can't I just accept that he's in love with me?
- Why am I constantly thinking about him?
- How can I busy myself so I don't think about him?
- What can I do to show him I love him?
- How can I stop him from mentioning past 'exes'?
- Why can't I just go a whole week doing my hobbies and not miss him so much?
- Why do I feel this way, and yet at one point he thought I didn't love him anymore?
So many questions fluttering around in my head. I feel sick, my heart pounds so hard I'm scared I might have a heart attack, I can never stop thinking about him and the thought of never seeing him again makes my eyes fill up. I get so angry because I feel all of these things and yet I can't show him or prove to him just how much I adore and love him, and yet if I let him read this he'd probably just laugh and shrug it off (that's what it'd seem like to me, but maybe he'd be overjoyed inside?).
Ugh, Dave. Just let me go one day without thinking about you and what you're up to and whether you're thinking of me. You're driving me crazy.
- Mood:
grateful
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I'm sick to death of having nightmares. It's annoying me, upsetting me, and I wish they'd just fuck off already.
My brothers birthday was yesterday and he had a good time. I blew up lots of balloons and stuck them (rub 'em on your head and they stick!) to the ceiling and hung up lots of Happy Birthday banners. I decorated the table with little Sports Themed confetti bits, and we had take out food for dinner, and chocolate covered profiteroles. It was nice :)
My journals came. I adore them!
I just finished watching The Water Horse. It was fantastic and made me cry at the end.
Not in the mood for blogging, or talking, or anything really. I feel too miserable to do anything.
My brothers birthday was yesterday and he had a good time. I blew up lots of balloons and stuck them (rub 'em on your head and they stick!) to the ceiling and hung up lots of Happy Birthday banners. I decorated the table with little Sports Themed confetti bits, and we had take out food for dinner, and chocolate covered profiteroles. It was nice :)
My journals came. I adore them!
I just finished watching The Water Horse. It was fantastic and made me cry at the end.
Not in the mood for blogging, or talking, or anything really. I feel too miserable to do anything.
I've come across my list of things to do and realised, I've done some!
1) Print off pictures of Dave and I and fill my photo album.Not bad, four out of thirty six. Thirty two more to go! :D
2) Fill another moleskine journal.
3) Have a movie marathon with Dave.4) Read a few more books.5) Buy wool and needles, learn to knit and complete a project.
6) Take a picture of myself every day for one month/as long as I can.
7) Get another tattoo.
8) Get my hair cut and a dyed chocolate/honey coloured.
9) Paint my bedroom light pink and buy chocolate coloured bedding.
10) Join a class of some sort.
11) Get into a waking-up-early routine.12) Buy a brand new phone. (Only it wasn't bought, someone gave me a cool new phone!)
13) Buy new make-up.14) Spend my New Look giftcard from Dave.
15) Drop a dress size.
16) Exercise regularly.
17) Drink 6 glasses of water every day for a week.
18) Visit a spa.
19) Donate items to charity.
20) Keep a savings account.
21) Learn how to swim.
22) Learn how to horse ride/Go horse riding.
23) Learn to play a musical instrument.
24) Learn another language.
25) Make cute curtains for my room.
26) Travel abroad/fly on a plane.
27) Watch a play at the theatre.
28) Have a bikini wax.
29) Go in a hot air balloon.
30) Do a sponsored walk.
31) Go skinny dipping.
32) Get tickets for Jeremy Kyle.
33) Get engaged.
34) Get married.
35) Have a baby or two.
36) Move out.
I'm not myself today. Well, I guess I am if you think of myself being a depressed, fatigue-ridden mess. I like to think of myself as a happy, bubbly, full-of-life girl, so to me.. I'm not myself what-so-ever.
My nightmares don't help, at all. I've had them for over a week now and it's always about Dave. It's so awful, but thinking about spending time with him this week just makes me want to go back to bed until this week is over. I don't know what he's doing or whether he's doing it on purpose but he's not being himself, and as much as I try to ignore it due to the circumstances and issues going on recently, I just can't.
For me to be happy, I need to have happy people around me who aren't gonna talk to me like shit and touch me in certain places at the same time. It's confusing, and I want the happiness back for both of us.
I'm not coming out this week and I'm gonna try to ignore my depression as much as I can. I don't know how when I have nothing to do, but I'll try to keep myself busy. Maybe the week apart will be good for him too.
On another note {and trying to seem more happy}, I'm knitting a grey and black wallet. I hope it turns out okay. I'm not confident enough to use any other patterns yet apart from knitting, but.. I might give it a try. I can always undo it if it goes to shit.
My nightmares don't help, at all. I've had them for over a week now and it's always about Dave. It's so awful, but thinking about spending time with him this week just makes me want to go back to bed until this week is over. I don't know what he's doing or whether he's doing it on purpose but he's not being himself, and as much as I try to ignore it due to the circumstances and issues going on recently, I just can't.
For me to be happy, I need to have happy people around me who aren't gonna talk to me like shit and touch me in certain places at the same time. It's confusing, and I want the happiness back for both of us.
I'm not coming out this week and I'm gonna try to ignore my depression as much as I can. I don't know how when I have nothing to do, but I'll try to keep myself busy. Maybe the week apart will be good for him too.
On another note {and trying to seem more happy}, I'm knitting a grey and black wallet. I hope it turns out okay. I'm not confident enough to use any other patterns yet apart from knitting, but.. I might give it a try. I can always undo it if it goes to shit.
I'm reading a new look called Before I Wake by R.J Wiersema. It's good so far and I think it'd be even better without the cheating aspect thrown in there. It's just me, but I hate reading about people who cheat, it's sickening. Literally. Last night I started to read it, got to the cheating part and felt physically sick. Not sure what's going on there, but I didn't let it put me off. I kept reading and so far it's good. I've a lot more pages to go and I'm looking forward to getting lost in it. Hopefully I will.
I've knitted my first project. I started and finished it all by myself, thought of it by myself and I'm wearing it, myself. :P I'll upload a photo as soon as I can! I'm currently showing my mum what kind of bag I want her to knit. I can't do it myself because it's just too big a project right now. I'm going to buy more wool to make a scarf out of. I also want some big needles to make looser knitted projects. I'm excited about making more!
My brother and I are wanting to go swimming and jogging together. It was my idea and he thinks we won't get round to doing it as I'm never home, but I'll make a point of it to do them. I can get him to teach me how to swim, too. He's 16 and teaching his 18 year old sister how to swim! I should be learning how to drive right now, but like I keep saying, I'm slower than everyone else. Slow is better, anyway.
My brothers 17th birthday is May 1st. I bought him a tshirt which he's decided to wear already, bleh. As long as he doesn't forget that when his birthday rolls around, I don't mind!
Tomorrow I'm going for a meal with Dave and his family to celebrate his dads 60th birthday. I'm looking forward to it!
For now, I'll carry on watching Star Trek TNG Season 4. It's getting really gooood! Tonight Big Brother US has another eviction so I can't wait to see that.
I've knitted my first project. I started and finished it all by myself, thought of it by myself and I'm wearing it, myself. :P I'll upload a photo as soon as I can! I'm currently showing my mum what kind of bag I want her to knit. I can't do it myself because it's just too big a project right now. I'm going to buy more wool to make a scarf out of. I also want some big needles to make looser knitted projects. I'm excited about making more!
My brother and I are wanting to go swimming and jogging together. It was my idea and he thinks we won't get round to doing it as I'm never home, but I'll make a point of it to do them. I can get him to teach me how to swim, too. He's 16 and teaching his 18 year old sister how to swim! I should be learning how to drive right now, but like I keep saying, I'm slower than everyone else. Slow is better, anyway.
My brothers 17th birthday is May 1st. I bought him a tshirt which he's decided to wear already, bleh. As long as he doesn't forget that when his birthday rolls around, I don't mind!
Tomorrow I'm going for a meal with Dave and his family to celebrate his dads 60th birthday. I'm looking forward to it!
For now, I'll carry on watching Star Trek TNG Season 4. It's getting really gooood! Tonight Big Brother US has another eviction so I can't wait to see that.
1. I’ve come to realize that my boobs…
Are fine the way they are. I wish they were bigger, but they're a good handful and they will do what they were made to do perfectly when I have a baby. My boyfriend is always having a naughty grope, so he likes them too. I don't think I'd ever have a boob job, so I'll just be happy with what God gave me.
2. I’ve come to realize that when I talk…
I shouldn't. I should keep it shut or think about what I'm gonna say first.
3. I’ve come to realize that when I love someone…
I try so hard to not let them know, more than the opposite. I hate it but it's just what I do. I'm afraid of them hurting me, so if they do.. I can say.. well I didn't love you anyway. I don't know. I'm really messed up in that department, but I am trying to fix it.
4. I’ve come to realize that I need…
Friends. I need to be close to my family and find loyal friends to hang out with. I also need hobbies to keep me busy, a job to keep my belly full and clothes on my back, and to get along with my boyfriend.
5. I’ve come to realize that I have lost…
The chance to have a really great relationship with Dave. I've fucked it up too much for it to be really great, now.
6. I’ve come to realize that I hate it when…
I get in moods, and I just can't get out of them. I can get in them for the smallest reason.
7. I’ve come to realize that if I’m drunk….
I don't get drunk.
8. I’ve come to realize that money…
Is important if I want to raise the amount of children my boyfriend wants to have.
9. I’ve come to realize that people…
Suck
10. I’ve come to realize that I’ll always be…
Me
11. I’ve come to realize that I have a crush on…
I have a crush on my boyfriend.
12. I’ve come to realize that I want…
I want a lot of things.
13. I’ve come to realize that my cell phone is…
In need of a Sim Card. I need to buy one.
14. I’ve come to realize that when I woke up this morning…
The first thing I thought of was how much I weigh.
15. I’ve come to realize that before I go to sleep at night…
I need to daydream about things and think about certain situations that might never happen. I dream when I'm awake, basically, making up my dreams as I want them to be.
16. I’ve come to realize that right now I am thinking about..
Going to knit, read a book and speak to my boyfriend on the phone.
17. I’ve come to realize that right now I hate..
Wasting my days!
18. I’ve come to realize that when I get on Myspace..
I don't go on myspace. :P
19. I’ve come to realize that today ….
I wasted the day thinking about if Dave was gonna pick me up like he said. I was angry with him for letting me down again and letting me do nothing all day cause I thought I'd be seeing him. I thought he'd just fucked me off but he was looking after his terminally ill brother, and celebrating his dads 60th birthday. He was thinking about me today and he wanted to come pick me up, but his dad wouldn't let him have the car cause he'd had one Guiness.
20. I’ve come to realize that tonight I will…
Knit, read and talk to Dave!
21. I’ve come to realize that tomorrow I will…
See Dave (but if I don't, that's okay!) or spend time with my brother.
22. I’ve come to realize that I really want to….
Go swimming!
23. I’ve come to realize that the person who is most likely to repost this…
I'm not sure. :D
- Mood: Happy!
- Music:Delta Goodrem - Innocent Eyes
Happy Two Years & Six Months Dave!
I will be posting pictures of my scarf and iPod cosy very soon!
- I have a new phone (same as Dave's actually, only white!)
- My mum finished my scarf!
- My mum made me an iPod Cosy!
- I will actually get round to making my own knitted project. Soon. :P
Dave says:Yay! I was really chuffed (happy) with that. I kinda thought that he was glad of being away from me, or something insane like that. Obviously just my insecurities which I'm keeping locked away. They're silly and I know I shouldn't be thinking that way because that's not how things are. Still, it's nice to hear things like that and be reassured every once in a while. :)
i feel absolutely shitty about not seeing you so much
Rebecca says:
why?
Dave says:
but if it's any consellation to you, i'm constantly thinking aboutcha
Rebecca says:
really? :D
Dave says:
aye it's awful
Dave says:
i miss you loads
Rebecca says:
(L)
Rebecca says:
I miss you too baba
I will be posting pictures of my scarf and iPod cosy very soon!
- Mood:
Loved - Music:Delta Goodrem - Innocent Eyes
I'm at home today and I woke up in my own bed, but I didn't sleep long! I got up for 8am to run errands for the day. I needed a letter to prove I left college and I'd been sent one, but I didn't know where it was. I went looking for it an hour ago and after a minute, I found it! I did a huge dance right in the kitchen in front of Patch (my dog <3). I think he thought I was insane.
I'm missing Dave terribly. I've been with him for four days with only a two hour break in the middle, and I miss him so damn much. It's like I've got so used to waking up there and sleeping there, and being here and away from him is just really weird. I am enjoying the quiet time to myself, mind. Edit: Either I feel really sick {lack of food?} or I miss Dave a lot more than I thought, I feel physically sick! Dude, next time remind me not to spend so much fun time with him! :(
As I said in my last blog, I bought some grey wool. One of my errands is to go to the bank and put money in my brothers account so I can use his card to pay for it! . I have a bank charge on mine so if I put money in, it's just gonna eat it right up. Psh. Here's the wool:
I'm missing Dave terribly. I've been with him for four days with only a two hour break in the middle, and I miss him so damn much. It's like I've got so used to waking up there and sleeping there, and being here and away from him is just really weird. I am enjoying the quiet time to myself, mind. Edit: Either I feel really sick {lack of food?} or I miss Dave a lot more than I thought, I feel physically sick! Dude, next time remind me not to spend so much fun time with him! :(
As I said in my last blog, I bought some grey wool. One of my errands is to go to the bank and put money in my brothers account so I can use his card to pay for it! . I have a bank charge on mine so if I put money in, it's just gonna eat it right up. Psh. Here's the wool:
- Music:Enchanted {movie} Song - That's How You Know <3
I have been at Davey's house since Sunday now and we're having a good time. On Monday we went for a walk to a nearby pond (unfortunately, a boy drowned there a few weeks ago), fed the ducks and then went to the shops to look around. Dave bought me some baby pink wool so that will be used on the ends of my knitted scarf that my mum is currently knitting! It'll look gorgeous.
We saw LOTR3 last night and it was FAB, I loved it!
Today we started to fall out a bit, like we usually do if we're stuck in his room for days on end. I went to Bingo with Dave's mum (shes the number caller) and I socialised with the old people, haha. It was so much fun, and I got away from this room for a bit, and Dave and I are getting along better. :)
I've bought some grey wool from Ebay and I'm waiting for that to arrive! I can't wait.
We saw LOTR3 last night and it was FAB, I loved it!
Today we started to fall out a bit, like we usually do if we're stuck in his room for days on end. I went to Bingo with Dave's mum (shes the number caller) and I socialised with the old people, haha. It was so much fun, and I got away from this room for a bit, and Dave and I are getting along better. :)
I've bought some grey wool from Ebay and I'm waiting for that to arrive! I can't wait.
- Location:Dave's Bedroom
- Mood: good
- Music:Eastenders Theme Tune
Dave has been having some family problems recently and has been with his brother a lot recently. He went with him for his (millionth) chemo, he stayed at the hospital all day with his brothers friend who was critically ill (still is, but is better than the first night she went in) and they don't know what is wrong with her yet. I'm so used to him being online and being there whenever I go looking for him, and for the past few days he's not been there so I've hardly talked to him. I feel a bit selfish for wishing he was around more, but he's gotta do what he's gotta do.
I wish they were all better and no one was in pain, and I wish Dave didn't have to run around and look after everyone, he's too young to be doing that on his own. His family aren't mentally strong so while everyone is breaking down, he's keeping everything together and doing everything. I'm proud of him for that. I just wish I saw him so I could tell him..
Heh, ironic that there is a Cancer ad on this Post an Entry page next to my writing.
I wish they were all better and no one was in pain, and I wish Dave didn't have to run around and look after everyone, he's too young to be doing that on his own. His family aren't mentally strong so while everyone is breaking down, he's keeping everything together and doing everything. I'm proud of him for that. I just wish I saw him so I could tell him..
Heh, ironic that there is a Cancer ad on this Post an Entry page next to my writing.
Trying to keep myself busy to fill up the few hours I usually (for over two years) spend with Dave every day. It really does sound selfish but I don't mean it to be. Edit// He's online now! :D It'll be nice to speak to him for a bit.
Friday Five (for yesterday..)
1. If you had the ability to legally change your name, would you? To what?
You can legally change your mind. It costs £30 or so. o.O I love my name the way it is, so ner! If I was a boy I'd want to be called Charlie. :)
2. What do you with with change that you receive from banks/purchases/find on the ground?
I spend it on more useless things that make me happy for a while. I'm very materialistic.
3. If you could travel back in time to change the course of one historical event, what event would it be?
I wouldn't change anything. Things happen for a reason. If I change one thing, the future would be very different. People might die, people might be hurt, anything could happen.
4. Would you rather live a safe, stable, moderately interesting life or one where every day was dangerous, volatile, and different?
I'd rather be safe and moderately interesting. :)
5. What do you think you'll be remembered for when you die and, if you could, would you change it to something else?
I'll be remembered for being a good mum, a loving wife, daughter and friend, and I'll have helped people and been very kind to people when they needed it most. I hope.
P.S - MY MITTENS! :D Thanks mum.
Friday Five (for yesterday..)
1. If you had the ability to legally change your name, would you? To what?
You can legally change your mind. It costs £30 or so. o.O I love my name the way it is, so ner! If I was a boy I'd want to be called Charlie. :)
2. What do you with with change that you receive from banks/purchases/find on the ground?
I spend it on more useless things that make me happy for a while. I'm very materialistic.
3. If you could travel back in time to change the course of one historical event, what event would it be?
I wouldn't change anything. Things happen for a reason. If I change one thing, the future would be very different. People might die, people might be hurt, anything could happen.
4. Would you rather live a safe, stable, moderately interesting life or one where every day was dangerous, volatile, and different?
I'd rather be safe and moderately interesting. :)
5. What do you think you'll be remembered for when you die and, if you could, would you change it to something else?
I'll be remembered for being a good mum, a loving wife, daughter and friend, and I'll have helped people and been very kind to people when they needed it most. I hope.
P.S - MY MITTENS! :D Thanks mum.
- Mood:
worried - Music:Paula Cole - I Don't Want To Wait
I had an interview today at 9pm. It went well, but there was a bit of an accident with a bomb. Yeah, a bomb scare. Either a practice run or an actual bomb scare, but fuck me.. I almost cried, and that was so embarassing. Someone else cried, and we all had to shuffle up in the middle of the room and close the blinds. I was SO glad to get out of there, and I took the long bus journey home instead of the quick train, so I could enjoy being in the sun and being alive!
So I'm going to see Dave today. I usually don't see him till Friday but I had an awful feeling yesterday that something bad was going to happen, and it did. His brothers friend (she looks after his brother, he has bowel cancer and has chemo which wears him out a lot) was taken to hospital for something about her throat. I think they think she has cancer too but I'm not sure what's happened as I had to go to bed before Dave got back to tell me anything about it last night.
I'm going to the library to get some books out too. I was going to buy one - being the blonde Becky - but my mum reminded me of a little thing called a LIBRARY. So.. I'm going to sign up today and get some out.
Edit: I walked to the library (about 20 minute walk), got some blood worms for the newt from the pet shop first (at this point, it starts to rain), then went to the library. Tried to open the door, wouldn't budge. Checked the sign: "Thursday - Closed All DAY!". Dammit. So I walked back home, in the pouring down rain. I've not had such a good day today, but I've had a positive attitude about everything and I'm really happy.
Food-wise, I've been amazingly good! It's only mid-day and I've had like a full day of activities already, but I've eaten whole wheat toast and a banana for breakfast, and I've just made myself a tuna salad with chopped baby plum tomatoes and sliced carrots, and an orange. I haven't had a salad for.. months!
So I'm going to see Dave today. I usually don't see him till Friday but I had an awful feeling yesterday that something bad was going to happen, and it did. His brothers friend (she looks after his brother, he has bowel cancer and has chemo which wears him out a lot) was taken to hospital for something about her throat. I think they think she has cancer too but I'm not sure what's happened as I had to go to bed before Dave got back to tell me anything about it last night.
Food-wise, I've been amazingly good! It's only mid-day and I've had like a full day of activities already, but I've eaten whole wheat toast and a banana for breakfast, and I've just made myself a tuna salad with chopped baby plum tomatoes and sliced carrots, and an orange. I haven't had a salad for.. months!
- Mood: relieved
For every last b r u i s e you gave meI've taken the past {almost} three years for granted, totally and completely. I let myself remember how things used to be and how low and miserable I was and I felt my heart sink because my life is amazing. I picked myself up and I let myself fall in love with you, and you've been incredible. I'm trying so hard to show how grateful I am and do little things to show you how much I truly love you. I am so, so lucky. A lot of people in this world are alone with no one to love them. In a way, I'm a very rich girl. I have my whole life waiting for me.
For every time I sat in t e a r s
For the m i l l i o n ways you hurt me
I just wanna tell you t h i s
You broke my world, made me s t r o n g
T h a n k y o u
Messed up my dreams, made me s t r o n g
T h a n k y o u
Move a step closer you, know that I want y o u
I can tell by your eyes that you want m e too
Just a question of time, I knew we'd be t o g e t h e r
And that you'd be mine, I want you here f o r e v e r
Do you hear what I'm saying gotta say how I f e e l
I can't believe you're here but I know that you're r e a l
I know what I want and b a b y it's you
I can't deny my f e e l i n g s 'cause I know they are true
Dreams c a n come true
Look at me babe I'm w i t h you
You know you gotta have h o p e
You know you gotta be s t r o n g
- Mood:
In Love - Music:Thank You - Jamilia, Dreams - Gabrielle
My mum finished one of my mittens today. It's a white fingerless/thumbless mitten with a pink band around the bottom. It's basically a muff that has a slot for your thumb to slide through. I LOVE IT! I'll post pics when I can!
His niece and nephew are sleeping over, so I've no doubt they'll be waking us up early. :( I need some sleep, badly. My dog wakes me up scratching my door to come in and see me, my brothers music bangs me out of bed or Dave wakes me up. :( LET ME SLEEP DAMN YOU.
I'm going to sleep now and get as much as I can before the kids wake us up.
P.S
I saw LOTR The Fellowship of the Ring. It was.. FANFUCKINGTASTIC! I thought I'd hate it but it's really really awesome. Thank you Dave for making me watch it. The Two Towers is ready for tomorrow!
His niece and nephew are sleeping over, so I've no doubt they'll be waking us up early. :( I need some sleep, badly. My dog wakes me up scratching my door to come in and see me, my brothers music bangs me out of bed or Dave wakes me up. :( LET ME SLEEP DAMN YOU.
I'm going to sleep now and get as much as I can before the kids wake us up.
P.S
I saw LOTR The Fellowship of the Ring. It was.. FANFUCKINGTASTIC! I thought I'd hate it but it's really really awesome. Thank you Dave for making me watch it. The Two Towers is ready for tomorrow!
- Mood:
tiiired
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